Color

As you look around you at any moment, you are surrounded by an abundance of color. Color is in everything we see and can reflect feelings, emotions, meanings, etc. Color can mean many different things to many different people. When you look outside and see leaves on the tree changing, you know its fall and that winter is creeping up on us. When you see green grass under the bright yellow sun, you can assume that it summer. And after winter, when bright flowers appear, you know spring has sprung. Colors can indicate when new times are coming but also going. However, they can also indicate other things too. For example with the color of clothes you wear. Most people consider black clothing Gothic or widowed. People who wear bright colors wanting attention or to show that they like bright colors. Color can also have thoughts and meanings associated with them. When you think of blue, you could think of water, rain, the ocean, but also maybe associate it with the feeling of sadness. Yellow, you could think of the sun, but associate it with it being bright out. Red you think of blood, pink with hearts, white with snow, and black with death. So now when you look around again, you start to think what colors mean to you and what you associate colors with. Whether its from the colors you are wearing, the color of your room, or your favorite color, color means something to you. 

Why am I doing this again?

"Why am I doing this again?" is a thought that often goes through my mind. Whether it is from taking two AP classes this year or being involved in three sports and other school activities, there is often not a day that goes by that I don't think to ask myself "Why am I doing this again?". 

Taking two AP classes is not something I thought would be easy but looking back I'm not sure what made me say yes that's a great idea but I know that when everything is all said and done that all this work will pay off and become rewarding. Everyday there is something I have to do for either both AP classes or just one or the other on top on the homework I have for my other classes. Whether it be to continue writing an outline for a chapter for history or to finish analyzing an essay for  English language, there is always something to be done. If there is ever a chance that I don't have a homework assignment due the next day for one of my AP classes, there is always something that I could be doing to either get ahead or to finish for the week. On top of taking two AP classes, I also have my three other classes that have homework too. Many nights I find myself with at least a few hours of work to be done. However, there are those few nights that I have many hours of homework and those are the time when I ask myself "Why am I doing this again?". Although I get it done, sometimes I feel stressed out and feel like I will never get any of it done, when in reality I get it done even though I might have stayed up late. 

Being an athlete is what makes me ask "why am I doing this again" most often. In general, being an athlete takes a toll on you body, but add being a student at SkyView Academy and it takes an even bigger toll. Although I love being in sports all year long, there is no doubt that there are some days that are tough. Running cross country is not easy. My body always seems to be sore and tired. Having practice 6 days a week isn't easy either, especially with Saturday practice being a 7:30 am. But the fact of the matter is that I enjoy doing it. I like the feeling you get after a great workout and how you feel when finish a race. But its during those tough workouts when my legs are killing me and my lungs are burning that I wonder why am I doing this? Playing both basketball and soccer is the same way. I love the reward you feel after winning a game, but its the rough days in practice that I wonder why I play do sports all year long and why I put my body through so much. I am constantly pushing myself and feeling the affects that it all has on my body. Most days I am sore and tired and it never goes away because its the life of a student athlete and its what I want to do

Although I ask myself "Why am I doing this again?" at least a couple times a week, I enjoy everything I do. I would never trade taking two AP classes and playing sports all year long to have something that would be less demanding of my time and easier on my body. I love playing sports and the fact that I take two AP classes will only prepare me for college. So when I take a step back and look at it, its not all that bad because this is how my life is and how I want to live it.